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I guess for me this is enough « Thread Started on Jul 30, 2008, 1:18am »
We're one mistake from being together But let's not ask why it's not right You won't be seventeen forever And we can get away with this tonight
Brandon’s subconscious couldn’t have chosen a better song if it had tried to torture the boy. Walking towards the handicapped ramp at the aquarium with two brown bags in his hands, he’d yet to really drink much since becoming of age; however, that’s not to say he hadn’t wanted to try things. It was the idea of drinking alone, at home that made him turn away from the idea until tonight. Tonight when he was finally able to get a hold of that best friend of his.
The thought process that led to the aquarium went as followed; Brandon was eighteen, his best friend was seventeen, they couldn’t go to a bar and couldn’t get caught drinking otherwise Brandon would be in a shit ton of trouble, the aquarium was closed, and the front entry was back far enough from the road that nobody should pester them. So therefore Brandon felt the aquarium was a justified location.
“Take this already, will ya’?” Brandon held out one of the brown bags for Jason, reaching into his own to take out the bottle of spiced rum he’d already started on during the walk, it was nice, a bit strong but it made him feel warm, and unusually smiley. His frame covered in a simple black t-shirt, slim fit jeans, and flip flops. A slight slur to his words, the light weight wasn’t accustomed to alcohol.
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Re: I guess for me this is enough « Reply #1 on Jul 30, 2008, 12:29pm »
“Alright, alright.”
Jason grinned, grabbing at the paper bag his friend held out so kindly. It had been ages since the boys had hung out and definitely the first time they were to drink together. Hell, Jason had forgotten the other boy was older. If you compared them, it was anyone’s bet.
“This is why I still hang out with you,” He added, taking the clear bottle of vodka out of the paper bag he was handed. Excellent.
“And you know me, life’s been pretty good. Hanging with the family and girlfriend here and there. But nothing too exciting. Anything new with you?” He questioned, taking a swig from the bottle as he laughed at his already somewhat buzzed friend. “Done anything worth sharing lately?” He moved to rest against the cold aquarium walls, sliding down to have his rear hit the concrete. His hair was a sloppy mess and his outfit a simple plain brown and gray plaid button up, accompanied by loose fitting jeans, shoes and socks already lost so that his toes could wiggle free.
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Re: I guess for me this is enough « Reply #2 on Jul 30, 2008, 12:41pm »
Brandon lifted an eyebrow as his body lowered a few feet from Jason, "Oh, so once you're eighteen and can buy your own alcohol I'm out of the picture then?" He asked, shaking his head slightly. A slight smirk on his lips before he twisted the cap from the bottle and took a small drink. Listening to his friend speak, he was feeling not so bad, hell, what kind of a friend would he be if hearing about a friend's happiness made you bitter?
"Eh, nothing worth sharing really, went out with the track guys a few times, met a fairly interesting girl after she assaulted me mini-golfing, and set up my fall classes. Otherwise," his voice faded and he shrugged his shoulders, "I don't have much to report." Letting his back lean along the building he took another sip, "How are things with the girlfriend anyways? I mean I don't hear much from you these dayys, so I'm guessing pretty good?" Typically, Brandon wouldn't pry.
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Re: I guess for me this is enough « Reply #3 on Jul 30, 2008, 12:50pm »
"You went out, one of the guys?" Jason couldn't help but let out a snort. It sounded funny. "That's pretty cool. Happy to hear you have a group of kids to chill out with so when I ditch you when I turn eighteen, you won't be so sad and lonely." He chuckled and took another swig from his bottle.
"Okay, wait, you were assulated?" His eyes brightened. "As in beat up? God. Tell me you kicked some ass, even if it was a girl." Putting his fists up, he began to punch in the air, a silly scary face present over the boy.
"And things are going pretty well, I hope." A frown took over. "I don't get to see her as much as I liked, I mean half of the time I'm stuck at home and don't really chill with many people." Jason shrugged and ran a hand through his hair. "I think I just need to get out a lot more. Hang with you and some more people. I mean, even though I don't see a lot of people anymore, I constantly see Logan; and come on, I don't want my only social life to be my brother. Plus, I think I annoy him."
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Re: I guess for me this is enough « Reply #4 on Jul 30, 2008, 1:01pm »
"Its not that I really love hanging out with them, they just, think I'm so awesome that the bother me until I agree to go out with them." Brandon joked, rolling his hazel eyes, "So pretty much when you do ditch me, I will be all sad and lonely until I give in to the guys yet again, just to get them off my back." The boy swirled the bottle that was between his knees. "I guess assaulted isn't the correct word, more like, it was a surprise attack with a golf ball to the shin, and I didn't really beat her up, rather I went ahead and finished a round with her so the preteens she previously assaulted didn't beat her up."
Brandon sighed softly, and frowned in response to his friend's frown, "Hey, I'm sure things are going great. I mean who couldn't want to stay with you?" He offered with a smile, "Even if you are totally lame, smell a little funny, and stay home all the time." Teasing, a soft chuckle escaped him as he took another long sip, "Plus, aren't brothers meant to annoy each other? I mean, I really only see my sisters and I know I annoy them constantly."
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Re: I guess for me this is enough « Reply #5 on Jul 30, 2008, 1:16pm »
"Oh alright, I believe that. I mean, after all, they must of heard I was hanging with you and were all 'Shit if Jason hangs wit him, den he must be cool.'" Jason smirked, nudging his friend in the ribs. "And you meet some weird people. Preteens? Come on, you could have taken em'. No need to run around."
Jason's face fell and he hit Brandon gently in the head. "Hey, I am not lame, don't smell funny, and okay, well I do stay at home a bit, but that's not a crime!" His eyes rolled, "And you totally wish you had an awesome lover like me. Because I'm fucking boss." Jason let out a chuckle. "Well, I don't like the fact that people find me annoying. It hurts me." He playfully grabbed at his chest where his heart is and made a puppy face.
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Re: I guess for me this is enough « Reply #6 on Jul 30, 2008, 1:24pm »
"Bitch, please. The track guys would be all 'Jason who?' and I'd be all 'oh he's this poor kid I hang around to brighten his day' and shit." Brandon said, his eyes feeling a little lazy from the alcohol and his head buzzing lightly, a small laugh followed his words, "As for those preteens, I'm sure I could have, but the girl seemed to want to avoid them so I just followed suit."
Bitting on his lip and scrunching his features, Brandon rubbed at his offended head and smacked Jason back in the ribs lightly, "Fine, whatever helps you sleep at night, but one of these days you'll realize just how smelly and lame you really are." Brandon said trying to hide his smirk. Another warm drink from the bottle and his voice near a whisper, "Yea, I do wish that, a lot." Brandon didn't even realize he'd said those words out loud, thanks to the alcohol and all. Patting his friend's shoulder, Brandon smirked, "Hmm, well the people who think you're annoying are probably just more lame and more smelly than you, so they're just jealous. Y'know?"
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Re: I guess for me this is enough « Reply #7 on Jul 30, 2008, 1:41pm »
"What the hell. Nah, kids at school know who I am and they are jealous of me. All of them!" He screamed, standing up on his feet for a moment before falling back down against the wall. "And, I bet you were a little scared of them. It's okay to admit it." Jason patted his friend on the back.
"God, don't do that! I'll file a restraining order," He muttered, rubbing at his side, pretending it hurt a lot worse than it really did. Eyeing Brandon, he shrugged off the comment. "Don't worry little buddy, there are plenty awesome kids in farmington. I mean, it's good you finally have like one girl friend, or at least acquaintance. Not that I'm saying you need a relationship, but maybe it would keep you from being so damn bored and lonely. Then again, I still am and I have a girlfriend. A pretty sweet one at that. She's so fucking amazing." He couldn't help but smile at the thought of Salt. "And you've got that right. Logan stanks something fierce."
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Re: I guess for me this is enough « Reply #8 on Jul 30, 2008, 1:49pm »
"Oh yea I was totally afraid of the kids that are like six years younger than me?" Brandon laughed, "Sure they might have had like, at least twenty pounds on me a piece, but thats only because I'm a lean, mean running machine." He stated with a laugh, rolling his eyes, watching his friend brought forth a small bought of laughter before shrugging his shoulders and looking down.
It dawned on him just what he'd said and just how, not exactly stupid, but rather... oblivious his best friend could be. "Hey, I talked to this girl like once, she was nice and all, but once dude - don't start planning my wedding." Hearing all the kind things Jason had to say about his girlfriend brought forth mixed feelings from the small boy, he was happy his friend was happy, but the alcohol in his system magnified his own feelings, albeit unwanted, "Besides, I really like someone anyways dude, and I just know its never going to work, and I get what you're saying about liking someone and them being fucking amazing, it just sucks for me, okay? So I'm not even looking to start a relationship anytime."
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Re: I guess for me this is enough « Reply #9 on Jul 30, 2008, 2:00pm »
Jason was going to say something funny about the boy's self proclamation about being a lean, mean running machine, but stayed quiet to hear what else the boy had to say. A sense of sadness twisted his lips downwards. "Whoa. Since when?" The alcohol mixed with Jason's own oblivious nature, to make one dangerously dumbfound kid.
"Hey, now. Don't just give up, man. That's not the way to do it. Never just settle. Alright, I don't have that much expierence with relationships, but I've watched my brotehrs go through it, especially Logan. Now, that kid had it rough. But eventually he got his current boyfriend and from what he says, and the fact he's living with the boy, things seem to be going well. I mean have you ever told the kid you're interested? Maybe she's just dumb, and hasn't realized it yet." He shrugged, pushing the bottle back against his lips. "Sometimes you just need to go with it, just be all 'Babe, I love you and you gotta excpet it' and then give her a big ole' wet one." The thought of someone actually saying this, let alone his best friend, caused a small fit of laughter.
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Re: I guess for me this is enough « Reply #10 on Jul 30, 2008, 2:05pm »
"Uhm," Brandon had to think about this a moment, he couldn't pinpoint a date or a time, all he knew was it just one day exploded in his face and everything else had started to make a lot of sense, "A long time, I guess, I haven't really kept the date, just one day I couldn't stop thinking about them."
What a big coincidence that Jason would bring up his gay older brothers, it was like a unknown slap across the face. Unfortunately, alcohol made him way too open and way too emotional so this whole situation could have easily been avoided if he hadn't insisted they get a few drinks and go chill. "No I haven't told them, well I might of kind of mentioned it in a round about way, but I would say its pretty safe to assume they are just really dumb and haven't gotten it through their thick, silly, stupid skulls yet." Brandon groaned and let his head fall into one of his hands, "Why are emotions so utterly terrible!" Gulp.
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Re: I guess for me this is enough « Reply #11 on Jul 30, 2008, 2:14pm »
Jason scratched at his head, letting his eyes narrow. "Well, I didn't literally mean the exact date and time. 'A long time' is suitable enough." He groaned himself, waving the bottle about in his left hand while he reached over to pat Brandon on his head with the free one. "Cheer up, really."
"Well, they sound like a retard to me. And you don't need to be go dating some retarded child." He shrugged, pushing his head against the hard wall. "Seriously, you're too smart to have to deal with that annoying kind of crap. Or maybe they aren't that dumb, but are just trying to play hard to get like a little bitch." He shook his head and bringing the bottle to his lips once more before eyeing Brandon and realizing just how upset he was. "Oh jeez," he mumbled and wrapped his arm around the boy's shoulder. "I'm sorry, you must feel pretty shitty and my jokes probably aren't helping, right?"
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Re: I guess for me this is enough « Reply #12 on Jul 30, 2008, 2:20pm »
Brandon heaved a defeated sigh and took a long drink from the bottle that was slowly becoming less and less full, "I'm fine, I'm fine really, just don't worry about it." He mumbled slightly, secretly adoring the attention in an off, drunk kind of way. "Or maybe I'm not fine but I'll be fine."
Listening to Jason speak made Brandon break into a fit of laughter, it wasn't everyday you called yourself retarded without even knowing it. Another swig from the bottle and he couldn't help but feel himself lean in a little when he felt Jason's arm around his shoulders. His heavy lidded eyes gazing at the boy with another fit of laughter, "Your jokes are fine, I mean, I'm used to it?" He said taking a deep breath, fingers with their bitten up nails clutching the bottle he'd had. "It's just, your calling yourself a girl, and retarded, and annoying, and a bitch and its hysterical. I feel so fucking obvious and your just oblivious and it doesn't help, in fact its just too damn endearing and makes this even harder." Another sip down, "I mean can you just immmagiiine how hard it is not telling your best friend you realized you're madly in love with them?!" Another fit of laughter followed.
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Re: I guess for me this is enough « Reply #13 on Jul 30, 2008, 2:52pm »
Jason stared down at Brandon and laughed. The boy really didn't drink often, did he? "Jeez, what are you saying that if you weren't used to them, they'd be bad?" His lips formed a smirk, and he could feel his ears burn up a bit from the alcohol. "Are you sure?" He frowned, but only for a moment.
A smile took over his face as he heard the other boy laugh. Good, he seemed to be getting in a better mood.. wait. His attention focused solely on the boy's words, and his own smile started to fade as what the boy was saying finally sunk in. "Whoa." Was about the only word he could get out at first. He started to laugh himself, thinking at first that it was a joke. But, no, the other boy was completely serious? What the hell. "What the hell? No, you're lying. You," for some reason it started to make Jason rather infuriated. "Why the hell do you like me?" Now he didn't even know what he wanted to say, but it wasn't what he was about to. "You're a fucking liar." Maybe his own guilt for being a shitty friend and for being the most oblivious kid in the world was causing him to curse so openly. "We discussed this, I'm smelly and lame and I sit in my house all day. Why they would you be attracted to me." He lifted his arm from around the boy's shoulder only to realize how close the other one had gotten to him. What was going on?
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Re: I guess for me this is enough « Reply #14 on Jul 30, 2008, 3:01pm »
Of all the responses to just openly admitting you have a gay crush on your best friend, Brandon least expected anger. Feeling Jason remove his arm, the boy let himself fall against the concrete of the building. "Why the hell would I lie?! Brandon gritted his teeth and clenched his fists at his sides, walking the fence of blind anger and defeat. Its not like he expected a happy ending from this, he liked seeing Jason happy, he knew Salt made Jason happy, ergo he'd never want anything there to be meddled with but God fucking damnit, he just needed to let it out.
"I don't know why the fuck I like you, its not like I planned it! You think I wanted this to happen, it was cool when it was all just fucking jokes but then you get all girl crazy and I can;t figure out for the life of me why I get so damn depressed when you'd bring up Hailey or Salt or who ever the fuck else you were pining for and it dawned on me okay!" Brandon stumbled to his feet uneasily, his balance was terrible as his shuffled a bit, "To be honest, I think your amazing, and you smell great, and I don't care where you sit all damn day, but God knows I'm probably just fucked in the head for even thinking this way." Rum and Brandon Colvin should be known now as bitter enemies, the rail thin boy began to shiver slightly, leaning against the building to keep from falling over.
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Re: I guess for me this is enough « Reply #15 on Jul 30, 2008, 3:09pm »
Jason wanted to kick his own ass. Damn, that wasn't what he meant at all. And now look, he got his best friend angry. Fuck. I mean it wasn't like he wasn't flattered at the fact his best friend had a crush on him. And he definitely didn't have a problem with gay kids. But the boy needed to learn to speak more clearly.
Watching Brandon stand up caused Jason to quickly spring to his own feet. "God wait, that's not what I meant." His whole face completely fell, and he felt like dirt. "God, what the hell. No." He began to pull at his cheeks, "I didn't mean that, I mean. I'm not angry at you. Or, well." Jason paused a moment to take in a deep breath to maybe be able to clear his head. "I just, wish it wasn't me. Kid, you know I love you. But it's you know, like friends. And I just feel like shit because I can't accept your feelings. I don't feel like that for guys. And trust me, if I did, I'd be all over you." Cracking a small smile, he continued, "God, don't be mad at me. I just don't know how to speak what I'm thinking." He reached over to grab Brandon by the arm, "Just, calm down, alright. Please." The boy begged his best friend, looking at him with mixed feelings of concern and hatred towards himself.
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Re: I guess for me this is enough « Reply #16 on Jul 30, 2008, 3:17pm »
If only the world would stop spinning, then maybe Brandon could grasp everything and take a deep breath, but the world was wavy and he felt too warm yet and at the same time was shivering. Closing his eyes he took a few deep breaths, trying to level his drunken head, opening them slowly to look at the ground. His back still against the wall of the building for support.
"I don't expect you to return them or to accept them I just needed to get it out, I guess." Brandon blinked slowly, not lifting his eyes until he felt a hand on his arm, "you promise you're cool with this, I mean obviously not all of this but uhm, with me? I know your brothers and blahblahblah but we're not related, and you don't have to deal with me and and, I just want you happy Jason and I'm glad she makes you happy I just, couldn't help it. We're still friends right?" He asked softly, feeling so insanely stupid, he could have just kept everything to himself. He should have just kept everything to himself. "Just, don't tell anybody, please." He was as close to whispering as his drunkenness would allow, still wobbly in the knees.
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Re: I guess for me this is enough « Reply #17 on Jul 30, 2008, 3:25pm »
Jason's face started to relax and let out a soft chuckle. "Of course we're still friends. I wouldn't ditch you just because you think I'm amazing. That sounds a little silly, doesn't it?" He smile quickly turned into a smirk, "And I'm fine, I swear. And, just because we're not related doesn't mean I'm going to hate you just because you like guys. I'm not a creep." He let out a deep sigh. "I won't tell anyone if you don't want me to. Just, I hope you'll be able to sometime soon."
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Re: I guess for me this is enough « Reply #18 on Jul 30, 2008, 3:33pm »
Biting his lower lip, Brandon nodded and smiled softly. "You're not going to let me live this down are you? I don't think you're that amazing, it was the rum talking." He said with a slight hint of a blush crossing his cheeks. "Thank you for not being a creep. It means a lot to me." Letting his eyes drift closed for another moment a soft chuckle escaped the boy, "I can't believe I said you smell good." He joked in spite of himself, pausing a moment to nod a slight frown coming to him, "I don't know if I'll ever be able to. Look how drunk I had to be to tell my best friend."
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